Think of the future.

So, today was a stay at home kind of day. I have been feeling a little under the weather lately, so I layed in bed all day. But, I am now typing and watching Awkward. So, I realized today how much I actually would be lost without school on the weekdays. Sitting at home alone all day with no one to talk to in person but your dog, is not really what most people would call fun. It's different over the summer because you could make plans with someone whenever you want. So, I decided to be the annoying kid who texts everybody while they are in school and distract them from their learning by complaining about my bordem. Eh, it happens. So, anyways, I have realized that this new school year has not started the way I would have liked it to. I mean, it hasnt been too bad. It's basically, I have seen too much of a person I am not too fond of seeing anymore. It's that awkward moment when you spend the summer falling in love with some new person, and you tell yourself, 'This is going to change everything. I can finally be happy with this person instead of that other person who left you. I will finally be over them.' You tell yourself that a hundred times until you believe it. Then, on the first day of school, you walk in the front doors with so much confidence, and then, BAM! There they are. And your brain quickly changes it's mind. You're no longer over them, in fact, you wish you were still with them. But, you're not. You're in a new relationship of your own, and they have seemed to move on, so why do you continue to torture yourself? Because you're stupid. You gave 11 months of your life to said person, and without thinking about it, would give anything to have it have it back. But, you have to try and force yourself not to think about it. No matter how hard it is. Not only for your current signifcant other, but for yourself. Whats the point in living your life in regret. You have to realize that somethings don't last forever. You can't live in the past forever. I guess the moral of this entry is, don't torture yourself over what you once had. You have to think about the better things that are now right in front of you. Obviously if the person you once shared your life with just turns around and leaves you for some other person, they weren't worth your time. So, it is now time to move on and make yourself happy. No matter how hard that may be, you have to work for it. Because, there is no point in living in the past, when you have so much to look forward to in the future. Its worth the fight, at least I think so. And remember, if you need someone to talk to, I will be here to help. :) Signing off, A Lively Word.